1. Sharm      Posted 2 months ago #
   

   
   

   Hi Ladies,

   As promised I am checking in on the body truth homework for the next two weeks.

   I did "welcome home" this morning and the strongest feeling that came up was confusion. It was mainly in my heart. This was different from what came up when I did the exercise last Friday which was "Fear" in my abdominal area which brought me to tears as I did the movement sequence. I really enjoyed the part where you release the feeling by sound and movement...kicking my feet, raising my arms and shaking out my body I worked on releasing the feeling. YEAH!

   Will check in again tomorrow, would love any feedback or to hear about your experience with body truth.

   Warm regards from a very steamy NY!
   Sharm

2. mjasminsanders      Posted 2 months ago #
   

   
   

   good to read your post. i have been offline for a week since we have moved and the internet has been down. i caught the end of the phone circle which was so wonderful and was happy to hear your voice. i too will commit to doing body truth for the next two weeks. i love that you tune so clearly into where you are feeling sensation in your body. you sound good and i am pleased to be back in touch...
   from dry new mexico! jasmin

3. gal      Posted 2 months ago #
   

   
   

   Thank you Sharmini and Jasmin and all who keep working on the body truth exercises and posting your experience. I do not have very strong experiences with the body work so it is good to hear this and realize I need to open up more to it.

   congratulation on your move Jasmin!
   all the best from hot Tucson,
   Gal

4. Robin      Posted 2 months ago #
   

   
   

   I tried welcome home also. I did not feel lots of things from it, but I do realize there are many areas of tension in my body that need releasing.

   I've been doing the Forest of Faith and Surrender. My forest was like one I've seen in the Pacific Northwest - fir trees with vibrantly colored rhododendron (like magenta and pink) at the base - just growing wild. My ball that I squeezed everything into was red and like a rough surface playground ball. My tree of Surrender (or faith or something) was a beech tree - I've always liked the leaves of that tree. The bark was gray and almost like string cheese - hard, of course, not soft. I really wanted to make strong pictures of these images. It seemed like a good thing.

   Thank you so much everyone for checking in.

   All the best to everyone.

   Robin

5. kicianna      Posted 2 months ago #
   

   
   

   Hello Sharmini, hello Ladies, I am excited about this new thread. It is great that you are going to be experimenting with body truth Sharmini! I thought that Anna's (Wales) thread was great a couple of weeks ago. It was very alive and it lowered my barriers!

   I just had an early miscarriage and on this occassion I have given myself a present. The present is body truth work every day for a month. I am interested to compare notes!
   all the best, take care,

   Anna

6. Sharm      Posted 2 months ago #
   

   
   

   Hi Ladies,

   So nice to read your posts and thanks for your support and joining in the FUN!
   Anna that sounds like very compassionate homework to assign yourself.

   I am checking in for the last two days...I really love the idea of checking in as I feel it helps me stay committed to the practise.
   Yesterday the strongest feeling that came up for me when doing the Welcome Home body truth sequence was pain. It was mainly in my abdominal area and it was difficult to shake off but the movement and the kicking and especially using sound to release the feeling or sensation is very helpful.
   Today the strongest feeling was fear again in the same area of my abdomen. Made me think that if I hold all my emotions there could it possibly be part of the reason for my history of endo and cysts. I notice that when I am doing the movements that it is not with complete freedom I need to surrender more and trust my body...

7. pippy      Posted 2 months ago #
   

   
   

   Hello everyone, hope you are all well.

   I am posting with the homework Julia set me, Welcome Home, from the Body Truth CD. Figured may as well put it in here with the other Welcome Homers! Did it on Friday, but couldn't post as just got new password (if you are reading Julia, I think I had two userid's, one was pippy and the other was cw (accidentally registered twice a while ago) so if you need to know, the cw userid can be deleted, thanks. A reset password was sent to me for the pippy userid, it's just that I forgot I have two email addresses and hadn't checked the right one, so didn't know it was there!)

   Anyhow, doing the exercise was quite easy. I think the only part of my body that felt anything was around the base of the neck, sort of inside. Hard for me not to analyse anything, but I guess it was around the throat region, so I was trying to tune in with if I wanted to say anything or make any noise. The only release that I felt like doing body wise, was to tilt my head from side to side as if stretching out the muscles.

   I will try this exercise again soon.

   Thanks, Christine.

8. Christy      Posted 2 months ago #
   

   
   

   Hello, gals:

   It's so interesting to read the different responses here, and how much our bodies have to say for themselves. Thanks to all of you for both the inspiration and the kick-in-the-pants to get that CD actually out of the case and to work.

   Robin: Where is the Forest of Faith and Surrender exercise?

   I've been doing two exercises from the Body Truth CD: Out of the Trap and The Wailing Wall. I've done them each twice, and I've been surprised by how what I _thought_ going in that was going to come out the other side was quite different than what I actually experienced. With "Out of the Trap," I was really brought deeply into a vision of myself at my desk, writing, as well as creating this child I so want. As a result, I'm going to take the next week and clear out physical space for the writing work. I think it's no accident that I've let my writing space get overly cluttered, so that it's not a welcoming, encouraging space for the mind or the body to work. The question I'm left with, though, is Am I picturing the perfect life (unattainable) instead of the good life (real, possible)?
   With "Wailing Wall," I really thought it would feel like a comfort and support, or that, alternately, I would be getting rid of stored anger. But what I felt in the first part of the exercise was shaking off some bad things accumulated in my legs and body through the day but gently, easy, like shaking off raindrops from the skin when coming inside after getting caught in the rain. And that felt good. But the next part has been hard. In reaching for the baby, a kind of keening noise comes up. Not loud, but a true mourning. I don't have the certainty anymore I did even a few months ago that a baby would come, that I wouldn't just be waiting, empty, for a baby who would never arrive in my life. I feel like I'm reaching into thin, empty air. And I'm also struck by how filled with sadness my longing is, and how I don't know how to experience it any other way any more. And I'm brought back to the discussion from another recent posting about this idea of "babymaking" (I think Anna talked about this) with too much forcefulness rather than openness. So I'm going to work a little more with this exercise and see what comes up.

   Christine--Interesting about your experience with the throat area. That's an area that often feels "vulnerable" to me in doing yoga poses. It's never been a surprise to me when I remember that the throat chakra is about expressing yourself honestly, openly, and speaking out of the true self (hard things to do on a day-to-day basis consistently and strongly). Not sure whether that resonates for you at all.

   Cheers to all of you, and keep posting your stories. They teach me, and make me think and feel, and bring me back to the necessity of this work.

   Love,
   Christy

9. AnneElizabeth      Posted 1 month ago #
   

   
   

   Dear Sisters,

   So many of these thoughts and emotions resonate with me. I wanted to share some ideas about the experience of energy in the throat area or at the throat chakra. I began to become acutely aware of an energy blockage in the throat chakra about a year and a half ago right after my first miscarriage following IVF, as I really began to understand and embrace my longing to create a family. At the same time, I was breaking free of my corporate career marketing a number of toxic products including tobacco, and developing my work and business as a yoga therapist working with the terminally ill. As I have worked with different healing modalities including acupuncture, Reiki, and Body Truth, I have experienced profound feelings of constriction in the throat area. I also see the color blue at certain times during meditation or when I am in a state of relaxation. I think my initial reaction to these experiences was concern that this energy blockage was so persistent.. However, my Reiki teacher offered a helpful explanation. She likened these experiences to the physical signs of de-toxing that you might experience when you are doing a nutritional cleanse. In other words, it is all good. The healing is taking place.

   Sending love to all,
   Anne

10. Sharm1      Posted 1 month ago #
    

    
    

    Hi Ladies,

    Lovely reading your posts. Just checking on the welcome home body truth. I did not do it on the weekend and that's surprising as I should have more time..
    The strongest feeling or sensation that came up today for me today was tightness and slight tingling in my shoulders....So I shook it out and really sighed it out. I find using my voice very helpful in releasing a feeling when doing the body truth.

    Thank you for joining me in the process I had a really tough day today and have some difficult decisions to make. I will be choosing a new body truth for tomorrow - not sure yet which one it will be..

    Best,
    Sharmini

11. Robin      Posted 1 month ago #
    

    
    

    Dear Christy,

    Julia described the Forest of Faith and Surrender during the U.S. and International Phone circle on July 5th. She told us it is on her new imagery CD due out soon.

    I find I have been doing a bit of the ultimate mom dispersing colored challenging thoughts from others images. It has been helpful for some challenging emotional things for me lately. I am grateful to all of you for connecting here.

    Robin

12. Sharm1      Posted 1 month ago #
    

    
    

    Hi Ladies,

    Just checking in on some body truth home work before our phone circle tomorrow.

    I did "out of the trap" about 4 times this week and really enjoyed it. I loved expressing the longing with extending my arms and legs. Also I loved picturing the life I long for: I pictured myself strolling my baby to the train station to meet my husband after work. It felt really juicy! I usually go for a walk when I get home every evening and recently I have been meeting up with my husband and we do whatever is left of my walk together..:) Its been really great to spend that time together.
    I also felt an ache in my right ovary when stretching..
    This morning I had an image of a little girl lying in bed beside myself and my husband!
    Thanks very much for all your support.

    Looking forward to connecting tomorrow!
    Sharmini

13. Robin      Posted 1 month ago #
    

    
    

    Thank you so much for all that have posted.

    I will try out of the trap tonight. It sounds like there were some really good things there for you, Sharmini

14. Stacy_M      Posted 1 month ago #
    

    
    

    Julia asked me to do the intro/meditation and I am finally checking in. At first I felt very relaxed and inspired while listening to the intro and once the meditation started and I was lying on the floor my first instinct was to cross my legs. I don't know why...was it a comfort thing or something more, I'm not sure. I worked through it but then found myself anxious. I couldn't focus on just being in the moment. All the things I felt I should have been doing at the time kept popping into my head; I need to do this or do that. I do have a hard time relaxing and taking time for just me. I always feel like I have to be doing something productive such as chores like laundry or cleaning and I tend to put these things first. I have this mentality that if I get these chores done than I can relax and enjoy other stuff in my life but lots of times I never make it to the fun stuff because I run out of time.

    Then I did Welcome Home. I thought it would be good because I knew it was shorter exercise. The first thing I felt was some pain in my shoulder area but where I hurt the most was in my legs - I just felt plain TIRED and I started to just cry and couldn't stop. I feel so out of control with my body. I haven't had a period since May 24th and have have been having hot flashes in the middle of the night for about 3 weeks now and my hair is shedding more than normal. I am fearing the worst as my last FSH test result was 28. . I really didn't want to go back to my RE and have them tell me my only option now would be donor egg so I made an appt. to see my ob/gyn for next week but I'm so scared.

    I am trying to be positive but the scared little orphan in me (which has been there all my life) is making it hard. When my husband and I first decided to start trying to get pregnant I was so scared of pregnancy and giving birth. Even though I wanted to have a baby I was so scared of it. And now that I am having so much difficulty I want it more than anything. I feel like I'm being punished but feel so lucky to have found a supportive group of women who understand.

    Stacy

15. pippy      Posted 1 month ago #
    

    
    

    Hi Stacy, just read your post and wanted to say this:- don't worry about high FSH, missed periods, hot flushes and doctors who say donor egg is your only option - ALL of these have occurred in many women who have gone on to have babies. And even if you go to your ob\gyn next week and they tell you these things all mean something, you just remember the exact same thing has been told to other women out there that now have a healthy child! I have definitely experienced all of those things and I have still produced follicles and had lower FSH. If you aren't comfortable with your ob/gyn, it would be good for you if you find someone you are comfortable with. I think there are a lot of doctors out there whose people skills could definitely be brushed up on, so don't worry if you don't click with them, it won't be your fault. Just go with the flow and look at the appointment as part of the journey of where you're going - if it's good then great, and if not, then just put it aside and look for another path until you find YOUR path. Of course, all the lovely ladies on this website are with you and we all seem to be able to identify with our journeys, so you are certainly not alone and there is no need to be scared. We can work through it together.

    It's great you posted, it's great you cried and it's great you shared.

    And, like you, my mentality is the same for doing all the chores and relaxing later and often running out of time! I think there's a major message there for us to make the time to "allow" ourselves to relax and have the fun stuff! Keep in touch!

    And for my own homework - I tried the Welcome Home body truth exercise again - I've only done it twice, but I'm OK about that. Small steps for me! Last time I felt slight tension in the throat area (thanks for your comments Christy, I agree its probably about expression) and this time I felt slight pressure at the front of the upper chest. Couldn't identify with it, but tried a little stretching by pushing my chest out once. Did the breathing and sighing before that but nothing to really report from it. Will probably give it another go and see what happens next time.

    Thanks and see you all at the phone circle later.

    Regards, Christine (in Australia).

16. Stacy_M      Posted 1 month ago #
    

    
    

    Thank you Christine!

    It's so nice to be able to come to a place where people lift each other up and make us feel like we are NOT abnormal or broke or too old. If only everyone knew how much just a little compassion and understanding can mean to someone. It's so nice to know that I am not alone!

    Thanks again,
    Stacy

RSS feed for this topic

Reply

You must log in to post.