http://fertileheart.com/forum/ Just another bbPress community en-US Fri, 10 Sep 2010 09:40:03 +0000 http://bbpress.org/?v=1.0.2 q http://fertileheart.com/forum/search.php http://fertileheart.com/forum/topic.php?id=6147#post-35900 Fri, 10 Sep 2010 00:46:42 +0000 Sharm1 35900@http://fertileheart.com/forum/ <p>Hi Ladies,</p> <p>It was a lot of fun reading all your posts and listening to your songs! The song that popped into my head the minute Julia gave us the home play was "Let's Get it On" by Marvin Gaye! It does it for me every time! Marvin sings it with soo much passion I love it!!!<br /> <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BKPoHgKcqag" rel="nofollow">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BKPoHgKcqag</a></p> <p>One of my hubby's is: Flemenco Sketches by Miles Davis:<br /> <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F3W_alUuFkA" rel="nofollow">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F3W_alUuFkA</a></p> <p>Regarding the food that makes me feel most fertile. I love my morning green juice as well: cucumber, romaine, celery, green apple and lemon...feels very nourishing for my body. I have a feeling that there is something else so I am going to give it more thought..</p> <p>Warm regards<br /> SP </p> http://fertileheart.com/forum/topic.php?id=6153#post-35899 Thu, 09 Sep 2010 17:51:01 +0000 jaimeld 35899@http://fertileheart.com/forum/ <p>Hi girls,</p> <p>I'm part of the US phone circle (from Canada though). I had laproscopic surgery yesterday to remove 2 large cysts from my right ovary and for the gyne to see what else was going on and do a die test. Anyway I was a little upset to learn I have stage 4 endo - they removed the cysts from my ovary and I guess I have other growths - my uterus was stuck to my bowel which they detached. My tubes they said are enlarged but clear - I guess they are kinky because of the endo growth. I feel horrible and at a loss. Just wondering if anyone here knows of someone with stage 4 endo that got pregnant? IVF is most likely not an option for me because of the costs... </p> http://fertileheart.com/forum/topic.php?id=6152#post-35898 Thu, 09 Sep 2010 02:54:18 +0000 Mariah 35898@http://fertileheart.com/forum/ <p>I was chopping veggies for fresh broth &amp; salsa verde in my kitchen last night &amp; thinking about last Monday night's phone call. I thought to myself, well, I don't know what I would consider a fertility super food. But, then it hit me....standing in my kitchen and chopping is one of my most favorite things to do and if I am making something with fresh garlic and ginger - even better. So, fresh garlic &amp; ginger are my fertility super foods.</p> <p>Juiciest song ever - that is an easy one for me....Peter Gabriel's Passion CD.</p> <p>I finished Inconceivable last night - wow, I feel so inspired and strangely relieved by your story Julia &amp; all the stories of all women at the end of the book. I am struggling to get going with a regular imagery practice. I have also started a journal where I write "Last night I dreamed about..." before I go to bed and I do remember my dreams when I wake up in the morning. But, inevitably I get up to pee and then I forget to write them down &amp; then they are gone. That is what is challenging to me right now. </p> http://fertileheart.com/forum/topic.php?id=6147#post-35897 Wed, 08 Sep 2010 02:30:15 +0000 mandyq 35897@http://fertileheart.com/forum/ <p>Thanks for all of these juicy songs, everyone.<br /> Sending along one of mine from a favorite musician, Greg Brown. It's called There Ain't No One Like You...</p> <p><a href="http://ilike.myspacecdn.com/play#Greg+Brown:Ain%27t+No+One+Like+You:118456:s70871735.16147838.44297413.0.2.270%2Cstd_00d161928ba548fb8a811e9f5e0f380d" rel="nofollow">http://ilike.myspacecdn.com/play#Greg+Brown:Ain%27t+No+One+Like+You:118456:s70871735.16147838.44297413.0.2.270%2Cstd_00d161928ba548fb8a811e9f5e0f380d</a></p> <p>Fertility food for me... my morning green juice (cuc. celery, green apple, kale, lemon) mmmm and it makes me feel like I am doing something super for my body, which makes me feel very fertile! </p> <p>Best to you all. </p> http://fertileheart.com/forum/topic.php?id=6147#post-35896 Tue, 07 Sep 2010 17:02:11 +0000 Wren 35896@http://fertileheart.com/forum/ <p>Lots of rock and roll songs turn me on. The Doors, The Stones....<br /> As for a fertility boosting food or drink, it would have to be a vegetable juice. I think if I drank straight veggie juice all day, I would be very healthy - it's hard to do though! </p> http://fertileheart.com/forum/topic.php?id=6124#post-35895 Mon, 06 Sep 2010 20:44:29 +0000 ponessamorrison@yahoo.com 35895@http://fertileheart.com/forum/ <p>I'm also looking for the site on lowering FSH. Anyone know how to find it? </p> http://fertileheart.com/forum/topic.php?id=6131#post-35894 Mon, 06 Sep 2010 14:31:30 +0000 kicianna 35894@http://fertileheart.com/forum/ <p>Hello, this is the other Anna ;-) (from Belgium). Thank you for all these heartwarming thoughts! I would like to add a couple of my sweet moments to this stream of sweetness!</p> <p>- talking with my 8 year old son in his bed, minutes before he falls asleep. These are sacred moments really. He opens up and is vulnerable and little and I love him<br /> - lying together with my wonderful husband on Sunday afternoon in our lovely zen bedroom. The sun is shing outside, we may read or fall asleep or talk or whatever<br /> - looking in the eyes of my two dogs. I feel real connection with my fellow beings. Different bodies, same souls<br /> - smelling Spring in the air and discovering first flowers in my garden after winter. I am so happy to find them every time!<br /> - playing a beautiful piano piece and hearing that it has actually worked fine! I started music education (theory at a musical academy and practice with my son's piano teacher 2 years ago! It is a big commitment to myself and what pleasure!</p> <p>Oh, it feels good to actually type this! I feel all warm and nice. Take care everybody.</p> <p>lots of love,</p> <p>Anna </p> http://fertileheart.com/forum/topic.php?id=6132#post-35893 Sat, 04 Sep 2010 16:33:52 +0000 CSM 35893@http://fertileheart.com/forum/ <p>Hi everyone,</p> <p>I'm finally posting homework from the first phone circle (sorry I missed the last one), and look forward to reconnecting on the next one. I'm 41 and have had a very inconsistent FSH, ranging from 33 to 4 over the last year. I am single and therefore doing IUI/IVF, and trying to stay positive, thanks to the OVUM tools, which I first discovered a year ago. After about a year of trying (though not every month because my cycle is so irregular), I took the last six months "off" and was abroad. This was partly prompted by work opportunities but also by an RE mentioning "peri-menopause" and donor eggs. Being away helped me in many ways to find meaning and joy in my life but now that I'm back I feel many orphans rising up, reminding me of my age and all the so-called barriers to conception. The council of babies imagery has been very interesting for me - after several days, they still lead me to more questions, i.e, up staircases to empty sky, or into empty rooms. At first I worried that this was a negative sign (as if there is no future), but now I think it's more that something is preventing me from concretely picturing my own birthing process. Maybe it is because I'm not 100% happy about having to go the medical route, or maybe it is because I feel in limbo while I wait sometimes 60 or 70 days for a cycle to start! So I look forward to getting more clarity and learning to be more kind to my body. I also really appreciate the posts about positive/negative thinking. Julia's facilitation on this subject is so helpful as it is something I struggle with daily.<br /> Thanks to all for your stories and inspiration,<br /> Cathryn </p> http://fertileheart.com/forum/topic.php?id=6141#post-35892 Fri, 03 Sep 2010 21:42:39 +0000 AnnaJ 35892@http://fertileheart.com/forum/ <p>Yes thank you very much! What a wonderful husband giving you such reminders<br /> Anna X </p> http://fertileheart.com/forum/topic.php?id=6131#post-35891 Fri, 03 Sep 2010 21:38:46 +0000 AnnaJ 35891@http://fertileheart.com/forum/ <p>I'm behind the times with this one but have been thinking about it ever since the call before last (sorry I missed this Monday's) so here goes:</p> <p>*Growing, tending and eating my own vegetables and finding mushrooms - tonight we had soup made almost only from veg we grew and mushrooms I found in the woods yesterday.<br /> *Walking in those woods at the back of my house. Trees in general are wonderful to me but I especially love old and interesting woodland peppered with open spaces and younger trees. My friend has a beautiful gazebo in woodland that is the sweetest place to be and stay over night, especially when the bluebells are out in May.<br /> *'Secret paths' these are little paths that entice you along them. As a child I would often think I was the first person to find them and would have to lead the way!<br /> *Dancing with my husband too, especially when he does his fantastic dance moves that he's often too shy to show elsewhere (I wish he would show them of a bit more often!).<br /> *A great yarn and/or laughing with friends.<br /> *The friendliness of my town and the fact you cannot 'just quickly' do anything because people always want to chat and friends pop up everywhere.<br /> *The little meditation group at a friend's house every few months and the supper we eat together on the Sunday evening.<br /> *When threads of fascination come together and suddenly a great heart felt yarn appears that almost blows your mind (am I making sense here?!), I mean when things you felt in your bones, along with intriguing information, perhaps new research and the passion of someone else all suddenly hit you smack between the eyes and in the heart and suddenly your faith is strengthened in your own intuition and you really feel the joy and privilege of connecting with other people. Perhaps its when the whole is truly greater than the sum of the parts... yep I love all that. Its happened with this fertile Heart community for me on more than one occasion I am happy to say.</p> <p>I think I could go on and on so I will stop there for now.</p> <p>Rebecca - please post your carrot cake recipe!!!</p> <p>love Anna XX </p> http://fertileheart.com/forum/topic.php?id=6147#post-35890 Fri, 03 Sep 2010 15:45:11 +0000 Stacy_M 35890@http://fertileheart.com/forum/ <p>Your Body is a Wonderland....John Mayer! </p> http://fertileheart.com/forum/topic.php?id=6147#post-35889 Fri, 03 Sep 2010 03:35:26 +0000 Robin 35889@http://fertileheart.com/forum/ <p>For my song, I have chosen This is the night sung by Clay Aiken.<br /> My husband likes the look of love sung by Dusty Springfield.</p> <p>Thanks so much for sharing yours! </p> http://fertileheart.com/forum/topic.php?id=6140#post-35887 Thu, 02 Sep 2010 14:47:26 +0000 Alemona 35887@http://fertileheart.com/forum/ <p>Hello Susan,</p> <p>I'm so sorry to hear about all your troubles and the deep ache around your childwish. I'm sending you lots of peace vibes! It does sound like you &amp; your body need a lot of TLC. Be gentle with yourself! </p> <p>After 3 miscarriages I dare not hope very much and I am hardly doing anything special to get pregnant. Just make love to my husband often but particuarly around my rare ovulations.<br /> My husband is still on board with the baby-wish. I too, would find conditions like first finding a job very painful in that department. Do you talk much about it? We do occasionally but not very much anymore. As long as I know he is aware of my longings and my sadness, I am happy. I don't want to obsess about it and put pressure on him. I just make sure with my feminin charme and sometimes some help of Maca that we make love at the right time ;~)</p> <p>I read somewhere that instead of providing hormones to the body, maca works as an adaptogen which means that it responds to different bodies' needs individually. I like that idea. I don't want hormones. If you're producing too much of a particular hormone, maca will regulate the production downward. However, if you're producing too little, it'll regulate the production upward. I live in the Netherlands so I 'm not sure if you want to order here your macapills. But here goes: <a href="http://www.detuinen-shop.nl/folder/12795.html" rel="nofollow">http://www.detuinen-shop.nl/folder/12795.html</a></p> <p>Big cyberhug to you,</p> <p>Alemona </p> http://fertileheart.com/forum/topic.php?id=6147#post-35886 Thu, 02 Sep 2010 02:39:21 +0000 Shana173 35886@http://fertileheart.com/forum/ <p>Hi there, </p> <p>I have a sexy song to share too. Wicked Game by Chris Isaak. Here is a link: <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-oaHHrNQVrg" rel="nofollow">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-oaHHrNQVrg</a> </p> http://fertileheart.com/forum/topic.php?id=6150#post-35885 Thu, 02 Sep 2010 02:20:03 +0000 Shana173 35885@http://fertileheart.com/forum/ <p>Hello everyone,<br /> I would like to introduce myself and tell you a little about my fertility journey. I have been TTC for almost 1 yr and a half. I am 38 years, approaching 39yrs old. My wonderful hubby &amp; I have been married for over 7 years. After 7 months of TTC naturally and no luck we walked into a fertility specialists office in Nov 2009. It was then, they discovered a fibroid and off I went to surgery. It was also explained to me that I had an AMH level of .4 which means due to age they are diagnosing me with a low ovarian reserve. I was told, they were uncertain if I would even respond to fertility drugs which means I may not be a good candidate for IUI or even IVF. My FSH was 7.8 which is good but was told getting close to 10. We went in for our first IUI in April 2010. During this time I saw an acupuncturist and she got me started on some supplements. The IUI was unsuccessful; however, I was a surprise to the RE since I was able to produce 6 mature follicles. To get the 6 follicles, I was on the highest dose of injectable follistum. I went through I belive $8500 in fertility drugs for my first IUI which was covered my insurance. RE wanted me to consider egg donor. The experience was an eye opener and I wanted to start educating myself considering how this whole process was getting to become a real challenge. During the IUI, a fibroid was discovered coming thru the uterine lining. So off I went to surgery again. I was advised to go into IVF after I recovered. During my recovery, I decided to see another RE for a second opinion. This RE has the best IVF success rates in town. After more blood test, my AMH had risen to .6 from .4 which was a surprise to the RE who believes AMH only goes down, not up. I was loyal to my acupuncturist advice and took my supplements every day, did my yoga &amp; relaxed as much as I could. Even with the increase in AMH level, I was told my success rate at my age and with my AMH level was 15% nationally and with egg donor it was 60% nationally. Again, we had the egg donor talk. I was open minded, looked into a couple egg donor agencies. At this point, I just became confused. I thought I must be doing something right if my AMH level is getting better. I understand the clock is ticking and I am approaching forty. I went online and started looking for books to help me with fertility naturally. I had made a decision to put IVF and the Egg Donor option on the back burner. I came across Julia's two books and read them both within two weeks. Without hesitation, I have changed my diet, doing the visionaries, doing my yoga and learning to be more patient. I am detoxing also, my skin has never looked this good. In just a short time, I feel less stressed. I enjoyed my first phone circle and am inspired. I am going to enjoy this fertility journey and am determined to be a good student. So onto my homework. Look forward to learning from you Julia and connecting with others who are in the same boat as me. Sending baby dust to all... </p> http://fertileheart.com/forum/topic.php?id=6147#post-35884 Thu, 02 Sep 2010 01:46:56 +0000 rghah001 35884@http://fertileheart.com/forum/ <p>I love latin men (of course i like my husband better :) )so i would say any enrigque iglesias or even julio iglesias!!!! I love enrique's new song "I like it" . </p> <p>For our other piece of homework, we were supposed to pick a food that makes us feel really fertile. I pick my carrot/apple juice (Sometime i add whatever greens I have to it) that I use our juicer to make. I make this juice on the days i am not working and I love it and feel like i am treating myself. </p> <p>R </p> http://fertileheart.com/forum/topic.php?id=6101#post-35883 Thu, 02 Sep 2010 01:39:56 +0000 rghah001 35883@http://fertileheart.com/forum/ <p>Hi Mia,</p> <p>I remember you :) and I think I remember that you are hoping for your 2nd child, right? Thanks for your message. i think the circle was really helpful for me and i woke up the next morning smiling with a good sexy song on my mind! I hope you are doing well!<br /> Anything new with you... anyone from our workshop can always email me at <a href="mailto:rghah001@umaryland.edu">rghah001@umaryland.edu</a></p> <p>R </p> http://fertileheart.com/forum/topic.php?id=6140#post-35882 Wed, 01 Sep 2010 14:31:20 +0000 SusanD 35882@http://fertileheart.com/forum/ <p>Mabelen, how old are you? How long did you take the soup? I did get advised by my holistic doc to try Mung Beans, but I forgot to sprout them one day, and it also could be the reason I had such a bad stomach reaction. I wish I could find a good gastroenterologist! </p> http://fertileheart.com/forum/topic.php?id=6140#post-35881 Wed, 01 Sep 2010 14:28:35 +0000 SusanD 35881@http://fertileheart.com/forum/ <p>Alemona, you give me a little hope. Send me the link and also tell me what kind you take and if it is gelatinized. Maybe I just have to find the right one for me. I got Imperial Gold Maca, and I am still on the sample, but I have a green bottle that was just sent, maybe I should just try that. I am scared after the blood, but I want something. I don't know if I should just try Fertility Blend again to get my cycle started?? I am worried the longer I go without cycles the worse the situation gets. I have not had a cycle since March and it was very scant. I wish a doctor would check my ovarian cyst again too, but all they give me is the M talk and won't entertain the possibility that the lack of cycles may be due to something else. Maybe I am kidding myself but I did notice my temp was very high after eating yesterday, I cannot help but think this is a digestion problem, and like Julia always said, maybe my body is too busy working on my stomach and cannot extend energy anywhere else. I just wish I could find a good doctor I could trust. </p> http://fertileheart.com/forum/topic.php?id=6140#post-35880 Wed, 01 Sep 2010 14:21:30 +0000 SusanD 35880@http://fertileheart.com/forum/ <p>Alemona, can you send me a link for your Maca, maybe it is better.</p> <p>Sue </p> http://fertileheart.com/forum/topic.php?id=6140#post-35879 Wed, 01 Sep 2010 14:20:07 +0000 SusanD 35879@http://fertileheart.com/forum/ <p>Hey guys, It is very nice to have people the same age still trying. I am all about to give up though. I am back to the drawing board again. I am soo down today. I was trying the Maca, I cannot seem to take more than two without dizziness occurring. Also, I seem to have a problem with my digestion more than the gluten. I don't know it it was the Maca, the new vitamins I was trying, the figs I tried or what, but something has set me back again. I started bleeding from my anal area about a week ago, and now I have constant constipation. I don't think it was the Maca, I think I either ate too much fig, and fiber if that is possible. Or I was having serious stomach issues and I went to GNC and the lady there talked me into trying an enzyme tablet, which may have caused the problems to get worse. I have a bad hemmoriod problem too now which may be causing the bleeding, but I cannot keep anything down. I was so happy a few weeks ago because the Maca was stopping the hot flashes but now they are back in full force. I feel like my life is over. I just cannot seem to digest anything in the baby making department. It is like I am just not meant to be a mom. I have been trying to use the fertility tapes a lot to try to work through these issues but things just seem to be getting worse and worse. Now this week I had a chance for a really good teaching job, one I wanted very badly, but it fell apart, so now i cannot even get my other dream to teach to be a realty. I am just asking god all the time, how much more am I supposed to handle? My marriage is in a shambles, I have been laid off for two years now, I do not have any money for adoption or anything, and my husband said the other day, that he will not even think of a child until I have a job. I have not had a cycle since March, but the Maca was starting to work until I tried three of them, then I had the same dizziness I had when I took progesterone. Is it that my body just does not want to allow me to conceive? I think I have some kind of digestion problem that needs to be fixed before anything will work. I cannot seem to get any vitamins to agree with me gluten free or not. Doctors really anger me because all they can talk about is the m word. I feel like I am in a dark tunnel screaming and no one can hear me. I have been working with fertile heart for years now, and I have worked through soo many issues that have held me back, I know what I truly want now, including a teaching job, but nothing seems to be coming my way. The Maca is agreeing with my husband but not me. I just feel like giving up on life all together. </p> http://fertileheart.com/forum/topic.php?id=6149#post-35878 Wed, 01 Sep 2010 04:58:38 +0000 Kbc 35878@http://fertileheart.com/forum/ <p>Hello US Phone Circle friends,</p> <p>Here is a link to one of my favorite juicy songs... Sting Singing - My One and Only Love</p> <p><a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lEkJoMNFPEA" rel="nofollow">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lEkJoMNFPEA</a></p> <p>Kbc </p> http://fertileheart.com/forum/topic.php?id=6147#post-35877 Wed, 01 Sep 2010 03:26:54 +0000 slang 35877@http://fertileheart.com/forum/ <p>Hi there-</p> <p>I thought of another one...."Let's get it on". I know, so obvious and so awesome in its obviousness. </p> http://fertileheart.com/forum/topic.php?id=6147#post-35876 Wed, 01 Sep 2010 01:11:07 +0000 ncfp 35876@http://fertileheart.com/forum/ <p>Hi Suzanne - thanks for starting this thread! I'm Nico. I really enjoyed the chat last night. So I was thinking about juicy songs this morning and quickly came across a couple on my ipod. From way back in my clubbing days, I have always loved the song "Big Time Sensuality" by Bjork and also in a totally different vein, Louis Armstrong's "A Kiss to Build a Dream On" always makes me want to give my DH a kiss :)<br /> Links to mp3's are here:<br /> <a href="http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B001OB2UBG/ref=dm_mu_dp_trk6" rel="nofollow">http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B001OB2UBG/ref=dm_mu_dp_trk6</a><br /> <a href="http://www.amazon.com/s/ref=nb_sb_ss_i_7_16?url=search-alias%3Ddigital-music&amp;field-keywords=louis+armstrong+a+kiss+to+build+a+dream+on&amp;sprefix=Louis+Armstrong+" rel="nofollow">http://www.amazon.com/s/ref=nb_sb_ss_i_7_16?url=search-alias%3Ddigital-music&amp;field-keywords=louis+armstrong+a+kiss+to+build+a+dream+on&amp;sprefix=Louis+Armstrong+</a></p> <p>I'm interested in what other songs you all find juicy - I want to compile them all on my ipod - may be a good idea, right? </p> http://fertileheart.com/forum/topic.php?id=6148#post-35875 Tue, 31 Aug 2010 21:17:50 +0000 slang 35875@http://fertileheart.com/forum/ <p>No clue and so embarassing and funny at same time. My husband and I were wondering. Should i be standing on my head or what? Any advice would be lovely. Thanks! </p> http://fertileheart.com/forum/topic.php?id=6147#post-35874 Tue, 31 Aug 2010 21:13:58 +0000 slang 35874@http://fertileheart.com/forum/ <p>Hi ya'll--</p> <p>Thought I would share. New to forums. Suzanne, 42, just starting working on baby. Very excited. Also feeling very challenged but good. </p> <p>Anyway, songs--any AL Green always gets me going. Let's Stay Together is kind of yummy. And, John Coltrane Ballads, Alicia Keys most slow songs. Hips Don't Lie is another good one to get it shakin'. </p> <p>There you go. </p> http://fertileheart.com/forum/topic.php?id=6142#post-35873 Tue, 31 Aug 2010 20:50:11 +0000 gal 35873@http://fertileheart.com/forum/ <p>thank you all for listening</p> <p>great phone circle last night - enjoyed connecting,<br /> Gal </p> http://fertileheart.com/forum/topic.php?id=6101#post-35872 Tue, 31 Aug 2010 13:23:37 +0000 Mabelan 35872@http://fertileheart.com/forum/ <p>Hi Roya, it was nice to hear your voice last night on the call. I was in the June 27th workshop with you. I sat a few spaces to your right. -Mia </p> http://fertileheart.com/forum/topic.php?id=6140#post-35871 Tue, 31 Aug 2010 13:22:50 +0000 Mabelan 35871@http://fertileheart.com/forum/ <p>I've never heard of Maca but what caught my eye was the word Peru in your posting. When I conceived my first daughter someone I worked with at the time who is Peruvian told me that I had to eat Parewalla (not sure about the spelling) soup from a Peruvian restaurant. It's kind of like seafood over linguini but instead of the linguini it's in a broth. Well, I can't say if it was the soup or not but that month I got pregnant. </p> http://fertileheart.com/forum/topic.php?id=6144#post-35870 Tue, 31 Aug 2010 00:50:03 +0000 jo2010 35870@http://fertileheart.com/forum/ <p>Thank you Julia for your support. I look forward to working more with you.<br /> (Just not to steal another identity, I am not Jordy)</p> <p>P. </p> http://fertileheart.com/forum/topic.php?id=6139#post-35869 Tue, 31 Aug 2010 00:05:46 +0000 Christy 35869@http://fertileheart.com/forum/ <p>Rebecca:</p> <p>I'm sorry for the sadness of where you are right now. </p> <p>Your post rang deep, loud bells with me in a week when I got a positive test and then blood results that showed I was "a little pregnant," and then a few days later to have my period show up. I hate to say I've been here before, in the land of chemical pregnancy (isn't that a terrible phrase? stupid medical terminology), but I have, and for what it's worth, I'll say I think this is a genuinely confusing kind of loss. There's not much cultural acknowledgment for early losses like this, but they can and do hit hard. The imagining and happiness and plans start the minute you see that line. So, yes, you can get pregnant, and that's something to hold onto, because the doctors will tell you that's a sign that everything is working as it should. REs are always happy to see a pregnancy like this, because it means that a future, full pregnancy is possible.</p> <p>But, as Julia wisely notes, that appreciation sounds like it may not be where you are right at the moment. I don't have imagery suggestions, especially, except to say giving time to and acknowledging your sadness is really important. The only way I've been able to heal from loss and move forward is by giving myself space for the real disappointment and the "crash" that comes after hopes are raised so spectacularly. It's not wallowing--it's a way of saying hello to your sadness and how you had imagined a whole world (just as you describe--that "success" you're so eager to share with everyone who's accompanying you on this journey that then turns to another story altogether) and giving time to step back into yourself.</p> <p>Your UM is a wise ass woman. ;) Reading through the lines, the other thing she's telling you is that you aren't disappointing people. You haven't, by any means, failed at anything. On the contrary. You're doing everything you can, and you've circled round yourself strong support. </p> <p>Courage and love and solace,<br /> Christy </p> http://fertileheart.com/forum/topic.php?id=6137#post-35868 Mon, 30 Aug 2010 23:44:31 +0000 Christy 35868@http://fertileheart.com/forum/ <p>Hello, all:</p> <p>Stacy--I think everyone comes here just as you describe--lost and more than a little scared about the future. Sometimes there's great strength that comes just in acknowledging that trouble, and there's certainly strength that comes in arriving here, in this community. I find the less I connect, the more lost I feel, even though my tendency is to fold into myself. (So here I am. ;))</p> <p>kbc: Thanks for your post, too, especially the part about allowing room for fear without letting it take over. I think too often I've tried to tamp it down, ignore it, which only makes it more overwhelming. Your message was a kind of extra breath in itself--allowing room and space to breathe and remember that there _is_ goodness around. </p> <p>Christine: "everything is just as it is and that the world is working with us and for us." I love this sentiment. I have to admit that there are many days this is hard to believe (on days it feels the deck is way too stacked against), so I'm going to take this angle of thinking, getting this good thought in my head throughout next week.</p> <p>Cheers to all,<br /> Christy </p> http://fertileheart.com/forum/topic.php?id=6142#post-35867 Mon, 30 Aug 2010 23:26:52 +0000 Christy 35867@http://fertileheart.com/forum/ <p>I love how I hear the calm in what you wrote, especially because I know it's hard won. You're an inspiration to many of us here, Gal. Thank you for sharing your story.<br /> Christy </p> http://fertileheart.com/forum/topic.php?id=6146#post-35866 Mon, 30 Aug 2010 20:30:15 +0000 Sharm1 35866@http://fertileheart.com/forum/ <p>Hi Ladies,</p> <p>Just checking on homework from the last cycle. I am 38 married for 6years (soon to be seven!). My husband and I have been TTC for 6years. Atleast 4 of the 6 years we have tried numerous iui and ivf cycles. Most of the ivf cycles were converted to iui due to low response. We have had about 6 retrievals and 3 transfers. The medical diagnosis is a history of endo that I have had three surgeries for the first one when I was 25.</p> <p>I have been part of this community for awhile now and the changes I have noticed in my body have been tremendous. Just changing my diet(mainly completely eliminating dairy), adding a lot more veggies and juicing regularly has completely changed my cycles and made them a lot less painful. The work also has helped me tremendously with the emotional journey. I keep remembering the words of Dr. Northrup in the "Fertile Female" where she says: if you heal your body you heal the generations that come before you and after you and that's what I think my journey is about. It's an Awesome Task.<br /> And I keep having to work with the orphan who says " Why me?"<br /> I feel like we are quite close to conceiving this baby but maybe it has not happened yet because there is more healing to do... I would like to make my relationships more juicy;the two that come to my mind is with my body and my husband. Increasing the level of intimacy feels like the next big step forward.</p> <p>Best to all of you,<br /> SP </p> http://fertileheart.com/forum/topic.php?id=6142#post-35865 Mon, 30 Aug 2010 18:33:30 +0000 gal 35865@http://fertileheart.com/forum/ <p>thank you both for your support</p> <p>looking forward to tonight,<br /> Gal </p>